Ethics, huh?

Those who have been reading lately would be familiar with the evil course. The bunch of sadists dealt the final blow on the students by failing 10% of the students in the pass/fail course and by giving almost everyone a "Marginal" in the attendance. This goes into everyone's transcript, by the way. Talk about ethics in the teaching profession. Maybe, someone should be hired to teach them.

The Last Samurai

A couple of hours are now over since I saw this movie. It affected me enough that I read up all that I could about the samurai warriors and their way of life, the historical significance and truth behind the film and all that. Something about the way of the samurai struck a chord with me. Maybe it was the serence peaceful place where they live, I have always been a nature lover :D.. Their philosophy, a way of finding peace within one self, a discipline so strong that you stop questioning and worrying and accept even the harshest things with honour. Yes, its honour, it is the concept of honour that struck me.

I wonder whether progress in science and quest for knowledge is the right path. It is a path that certainly wont end by the time we reach our end. So why do we question eveything around? Stupid renaissance.. maybe it should have never happened

If we can find peace and happiness within ourselves does the purpose of life end there? The concept of "Karma" teaches us that the purpose of life is action, the right action. But what if action leads to anger and hatred, is it still the right thing to do?

At the end of the day all of us have to believe in something, make a choice and move on. Most of us, including me, lets the society take that choice for us. We let them decide the right and wrong, the goals and targets of our life. In short, a life is lived not for us, but for them, like an actor playing his part for the audience.

I conclude here because I dont have answers, only more questions. Given a choice to give up this life and become a monk, a life of spirituality, I would certainly consider it. Right now there is no choice, I will let the flow take me.

priceless

The flaming end of a lighted cig, the thick swirls of soaring smoke, you blow them away and watch them drift........... a false sense of peace and calm.......... priceless!

I wonder

I wonder a lot about a lot of things these days. I dont know whether it is same as normal thinking. Its more like wishful thinking, thoughts which I know I am not going to act on or thoughts that I simply wish were true.

I really hope there is a fate, a destiny. Something great down the line, waiting to happen. I hope I am destined for greatness. I hope I find love, happiness and peace. And I hope I will always continue to have friends as good as the ones I have now. I hope, really really hope.

p.s .. a bit too senti... i know :)

Philo

I feel disillusioned with life and everything that goes on in it. You might exclaim "Not again"!.. Well, I don't have a retort for that.

Shaastra is getting over today, and I feel nothing. Its not that I want to feel anything, but still it feels odd when you don't feel anything. I can see myself through the tunnels of time, a coalescing of the past and the present. Combining the years, I can see myself in most people, in the vol who runs around carrying computers and in the cord who orders him about. Its not that I have done anything great in or for Shaastra, but then its not that I have not done either. Inconsequential, you might say, another brick in the wall..

It makes me wonder how the different "me's" might have looked upon each other. Its a rather enlightening experience bringing all the different me's to the reality of "NOW" and then viewing them all side by side, a juxtaposistion of my own life!

Feel there is something lacking, a drive maybe. Recognition and relevance, the light is still not out, only the path is dark.

Arbit

The mirage- An illusion:

An act to keep others in the dark

An act to keep oneself in the dark

Its all about acting; acting smart, acting confident, acting intelligent, acting dismissive, acting concerned, acting happy, acting cheerful, acting angry, acting enlightened, acting and keeping on acting....


"The world is but a stage, where every man plays his part"..

Shouldn't we just try to be better actors?...

Ethics?

Being in final year, there is this evil course that we are being forced to endure, and is aptly titled "Professional Ethics", tought by an evil saddist who claims that we all have to endure 3 hours of physical and emotional torture for a 2 credit pass/fail course that noone would normally care about anyway. So, every tuesday, we are all rammed into a poorly ventilated hall, patrolled by five guard dogs (read TAs), who are keen to punish you for dozing off, reading any book, or for that matter, fooling around with the pen in your hand. The lead saddist is assisted by two other saddists, who constantly try to outperform the lead saddist in paining the students. And then, along came a guest saddist who made a feeble attempt at paining us. His trick to outperform the other three sadists was simple: Do not use a PPT, force them to take notes, which would be the only source of information on what he taught. At least the other saddists were kind enough to make their PPTs available online. He thought that'd make us concentrate better on his lecture, but he totally underestimated me. Here are my notes on the entire class taken by him, reproduced verbatim. I'm sure he will give up in life if he found out how his lecture was summarized.

• Fart
• More Fart
• Science is satyagraha
• Pain joke on Satyameva Jayate and Satyam computers
• Quest of science is to find out the truth
• Assumption: We are all non schizophrenic
• No priesthood in science
• Vague PJ on powepoint
• Teacher - student relationship (?)
• 11 Jan 1935 : BS Chandrashekhar and King Arthur (?)
• Presented paper on fate of starts out of fuel
• 6 June 1901 : JC Bose put paper on elec response in plants
• Both in Royal Society of England
• All people are great and noble
• "God does not play dice" - Einstein
• "Elliptical orbit looks arbit"
• "God loves curves"
• No doctrines in science, Scientist is not dogmatic
• Constant fight against existential limits
• Male and female at the same time: with some vague reference to Michael Jackson
• "MJ is God"
• More fart on MJ
• Lord Kelvin in early 19th Century: "Everything in physics has been explored"
• It started raining outside
• Quest to find the glory of creation - Rene Descartes
• Corpus Poetalum - What path will you take in life? - Descartes
• Role of imagination
• Tyco Brahe: Geocentric, Kepler: Heliocentric
• Selfless
• In the beginning, everything was philosophy
• Trust, interdependence
• Dedication to wife
• No place for dishonesty
• Everyone forgets
• Vulgarization of Rubber (!!!)

Maybe it would have benefitted everyone if I had posted it earlier, as the quiz for this course was conducted earlier today. Nevertheless, here it goes.

GEN

Long time( say 2 months :D) since I blogged. To answer the question as to why I didnt, it simply evades my logic. I guess I blog when I am feeling aimless and jobless. Also the fact that this blog appeals as a better blogging destination than my original blog makes me wonder about the reasons why I blog. The other one is more read and probably better appreciated :P....But its the anonymity that gives your hands that extra length of rope to actually write what about YOU really want to write. Here you are not writing for the readers, you are writing for yourself. That makes things a lot more interesting, especially when you can be the asshole you really are and shout it out to the world!

Talking about the world, my birthday was a couple of days back. Having been born in the age of Orkut, i found myself spending more than half of the day replying to the sufficiently large number of birthday wishes that I got. The gtalk announces the arrival of a scrap through a small pop-up and soon I found myself eagerly waiting* for such pop-boxes. It was almost an addiction, watching them come up and then give separate "thank yous" to each one of them. It wasn 't much different, each one of the "thank you's"... but then it was not cntrlCcntrlV either.

Now I again wonder about how fast the time has flown by, this was probably my last onam and b'day at IITM. I sure dont want it to be NOT the last one, as the only way that would happen is through a BTP extension or a CUP, both of which are highly undesirable. So, in a way I WANT this to be my last b'day at IITM, but at the same time I kinda feel sad about it too. The apparent contradiction that is seemingly present disappears the moment you realize that its not the place that you are gonna miss. Its the people!.. Those assholes around you, you will miss them. Not the stupid room, hostel, corridors or grass, no matter how much u mite write about and glorify them.

monday blues

monday blues lol .... this has been one of the best mondays ever in the history of mondays...
night 12 30 cursing espn star for not airing the first half of the madrid mallorca game the last game of the laliga season and madrid needing a win to win the laliga ...
Follow the game uptil 1 on the net and then start cribbing about the net going off at 1 ... madrid are trailing 1 nil at this point but no fear los merengues are not known as the kings of the comeback this season for nothing still very tensed

1 30 head down to the common room .Btw it was pouring outside sexy weather the second half commences ... But alas ruud vanistelroy it seems was injured in the first half and had to be substituted .What a blow for madrid their leading striker with 25 goals in the league so far out for the night it was unfathomable .Real are not playing that great football either .THe bernebaeu was getting impatient with every minute that ticked by
the 66 th min beckham had to be replaced cause of his injury and on came Jose Antonia Reyes .A lovely one two between Higuain and Robinho on the left flank,with the former then capping it off with an awesome turn to put the ball straight in the path of Reyes who powered his shot past the mallorca defense.THe Bernebeau egged their team on .Madrid laid siege to Mallorca goal.And with ten mins to go diarra heads the ball into the back of the net.The bernebaeu errupts. The comeback kings have been crowned the Kings of SPAIN.Reyes knocks in a third just for safety purposes :) .Narmad common room wasnt far behind the bernebaeu crowd .We too jumped with joy. After four years of heartbreak be atlast had somehing to cheer about and clebrate we did.We had beer and lays, Brilliant combo it is or maybe i was just way too hungry and happy.THe game would i guess is my second best sporting memory so far.THe first being Madrids win over leverkuesen in the champions league with that wondergoal from ZIZOU.
And the rain hadnt stopped either. i slept happily :).



Was woken up in morning by prassanas phone call . Told him i would be at the gate by 10 . Our man tells me that he has a meeting at 10 30 so i start whooshing on the vandi.Not a good thing to do on the narrow ascendas road .A bike before me sudnely braked and i couldnt do anyting but crash straight into him .My headlights took a bad hit.Prassana though was preety amused by the whole incident.I was sad that i would have to shell out 200 rs to get my headlights repaired. Back at the office i was chided abt the bike incident by cutte passy n co.

ANd ohh i fogot to tell you today was TIs first anniversary.So there were supposed to be a small party at 3:30 and all.I spent the entire day surfing websites reading abt madrids triumps and chatting with felow madristas abt the victory.So 3:30 it is some arbit speeches happen and we get some real good cake and softdrinks.And then the hr chap asked us wether we would join him for some beer before he heads off to bangalore. We were like dude you are the man.So off we go to GRT HIGH TIME and free beer ,is there antyhing better than free beer.
What an awesome day its raining again,the weather is just a crack.
This day deserved a blog :)

Life in Vancouver

I had actually written an earlier post where I explained my state of joblessness since I didn't know what to do and how to do etc. This state of joblessness is slowly changing and even though I ended up looking like a total idiot, I am slowly getting the gist of things. Its nothing great, just connecting some pipes around, making some electrical connections and stuff. But for someone, who practically never screwed a bolt in his entire life and who was basically as good as a deaf, dumb and blind person in most of the labs, the entire thing made absolutely no sense in the beginning. I didnt even know how to give a 24 V connection to one of the valves( the connecting positive and negative part) and the electrical shop guy was like " Dude, Is this guy for real?"..

Anyways, after all that, I do now know how to give electrical connections and stuff. The pain now, is that all the stuff which was ordered should reach before I can do anything. Thats an other thing here, whatever stuff you need for the experiment, you yourself have to order it from somewhere. Its not like you can generally walk up to some lab or technician and ask him to get it. Even when you ask a workshop guy to make you something, he will first give you a quote and then YOU have to pay him per hour charge for the work that he does. Its almost like the workshop is business in itself and not a part of the univ. Anyways since the paying is done by the prof, it really doesn bother me, but the cost of things around here is simply atrocious. I have orderd around $2000 worth stuff by now and probably some more.

Coming back to life here, this place is like the most beautiful place I have ever seen. I mean some of the views and sceneries basically is beyond your imagination. I dont think any place in the world can be more beautiful, seriously!. Alcohol is pretty much dirt cheap here, you get 6 bottles( a pack) for just $10. Thats real good beer too. The food is great as well, each day I am eating more non-veg than what I would in a month at IIT.

In short, to wrap things up, with some more good friends around, this place will probably be the best place on earth. But then, you cant have everything!

Things I look forward to

Right now, I am sitting in my lab, totally jobless, trying to figure out how to make my life more interesting. The thing is I am jobless, not because I have nothing TO DO, its just because I dont know how to do it. The Ph.D guy who works with me, the one supposed to be my "shephard in this valley of darkness" has duly forgotten to come in the morning, leaving me pretty much clueless. So I have decided to make this list of all the things that I would like to do in my life, or all the things that I look forward to doing. The reason why I am doin this, apart from being jobless, is that these days that light at the end of the tunnel seems to be missing. I dont see myslef having that great dream or AN END, the accomplishment of which will be my karma. So here it goes, in no particular order:

2. Parachute Jumping... like what you see in the movies, jump off from a flying plane and then experience the free fall.

3. Bungee Jumping-

4. Snorkelling

5. Own and drive my very own Harley Davidson or an Yamaha SportsBike( the ones capable of topping around 300km/hr)

6. Drink the best quality scotch and a have a Cuban Cigar alongside... along with which there should be great food, preferably seafood and beef. :) ..

7.Skiing

8. Own a house by a lake, hmm.. pretty much like the one Bill Gates has in Seattle.. (:P).. it needn be tht luxurious or something.. but located in some very tranquil surroundings, still have all the modern amenities.\

9. Buy my own range of Japaneese steel Katana Swords and get trained in them

10. Own a double barrel shot gun or a hunting rifle and go hunting.

11. Have dinner at a mountain top restaurant with an amazing view .

12. Earn enough money to buy a Rolls Royce limo..and get chaffeured around in it,, just for the sake of it :)

13. Have a personal home theatre with a 50" screen and bose sound systems.. an unending collection of quality movies to boot.

14. My own collection of liquor.. Have a cupboard filled with the best quality liquor from around the world, add cigarattes and cigars along :)

15. Have enough power to correct the goddamned educational system in India. :)

hmmm.. and end things up

15. Experience true, blissful happiness again, and again and again.... endless\\\


so guess thts all.. all other wishes are pretty much derivatives of the ones above. Except for the last 2, i guess the others are within achievable limits. After the above is done, I can probably start studying for my graduate degree in philosohpy.. :D.. haha..

p.s. good company is a must in almost all of the above,, except maybe the first where only well endowed members of the opposite sex are needed!

pps// and u knw why i started from 2.. :P

intern

Well i am interning at TI,the one at chennai though. Well firstly i figured out that tech in india still has a long way to go.I was sad to discover that even at a leading company like ti,very little chip design happens,.... over here its mostly testing and verification .Not that this work isn't demanding and all but still we are way behind out american counterparts when it comes to real cutting edge work..

Anyways my work is to basically verify whether a chip works the way it ought to, the industry word would be verification,now this usually take up about 50%of the chips design cycle and needs a lot of bull work to be done and ya a bit of logic here and there but not much i must say ...in brief the work is passable not bad but nothing great either

Moving on the one thing i do like is the work environment you are free to do anything you wish they dont really care as long as you get the work assigned to you done.I can listen to music,genna surf around chat whatnot nobody really gives a damn.The irony is the place is such that you get bored after a while and you feel like work is the best possible option.The food is very decent way better than the mess food dished out to us . and also we can have unlimited amounts of refreshment like cofee chocolate boost badam etc as well. The mentors are also fairly friendly people so i guess all in all i give the work environment an 8 on 10.

Though on Friday we came to know that anna junta are gonna be joining us .If there is anyone I am afraid of its anna junta.

Coming to transport i now am the proud owner of a tvs moped about ten years old i believe.Going to work on it just way too much fun.The moped is one of the arbitest thing i have come across.The other day it wont just start; we kicked and kicked for about fifteen mins and the stupid things engine wont even give a soft purr.Frustrated we take it to a mechanic and viola one kick from and the thing just sprang to life.we were like DUDE!!!! .We did the same thing.But then the six year old kid (our mechanic :P )put us some fundaes and we were also able start it ... the rest of the journey was smooth sailing.The other thing about the moped it has basically zuk pickup.seriously zuk pickup.It goes at about 10 kmph for about 30 secs before it starts moving.So the next morning the thing just kept dying down after starting or wont go above 10 kmph.but once it crossed the 10 kmph barrier it behaved brilliantly .now here we are heading towards adyar bridge at decent speed but suddenly we see traffic in front and are forced to stop. Now we try our level best to make it climb but the moped just would keep dying down.The traffic passing by had a good laugh at our expense .so we had to get off and push it to the top off the bridge and then somehow magically all its problems just vanished..it started behaving perfectly except the usual low pickup off course ...
The other briliant thing about the moped is its top speed uphill is 40 and downhill is 60 .My vandi is just too unique.i hope it lasts the next two years
:)
just waiting for a pic to be shared by someone it basically defines elec at iitm .Its just a total crack .till then adios...

mallu music

brilliant thats all i can say , for the past one hour on this hot sunday afternoon been listening to old mallu songs. Was cleaning my drives cause i wanted to install a few games and stuff and lo and behold i found this wonderful collection of mallu songs that i had handpicked quite a while ago.I put fight to get a few of the lyrics and also put them up on mini lyrics.Signing of with lyrics of this brilliant song,my mom used to sing this to me very often when i was small :)
aayiram kannumai
kaathirunnu ninne njan
ennil ninnum paraganoru
painkkilli malar thaenkkilli

manju veenatharinjilla
veyil vannu poyatharinjilla(2)
omane nee varum
nee varum naalu irunnu njan
vannu nee vannu ninnu nee enthe janmasabhalyamae

A burst of sanity.. please ATTEMPT to read it fully..

" i am not varun's alter ego who took over him 3 years ago and left him 10 days back, only to come back and take over him again, to type this post out for him, in this hour of strenous and stressful activity resulting in value addition for humanity, and increasing the entropy of the universe at the same time, all the while keeping the total enthalpy a constant, by the use of regular breathing and periodic ejaculation of body fluids, which may or may not contain life producing susbstances, at a speed/velocity which is significantly times smaller than the velocity of light and thus conforming to which ,the universe/multiverse as a whole is prevented from neither exploding and thus causing the second big bang nor contracting and thus causing the much predicted but still not confirmed BIG CRUNCH, which on happening, will feed the ego of many a scientists who are now looked upon in the same wavelength as monkeys with AIDS and rabies combined, but still it wont do them any good, as they along with all other living/non living beings will be fucking dead/destroyed by then, though the universally accepted phantom brain or soul shall be pretty damn pleased and shall never try to haunt any mansion again, although such a thing shall become an impossibility owing to the neutronic nature of particulate matter after the big crunch, realzing upon which i have decided to write this blog and share this ground breaking, enlightening, earth shattering, spine busting, nerve crunching information with the world as a whole and thus attempt to enlighten it so as to cleanse it of ignorance, idioticity, stupidness and the resulting MADNESS, upon which I might have contracted the very same thing which I was trying to remove!.. Ironic, isnt it??? "

Revenge of the Sith

Yeah//. the title says it all... i just saw the Star Wars Epsiode 3- Revenge of the Sith for probably the 20th time. Yet, it still manages to stir up my emotions in a way films rarely can. Dont get me wrong here,, i'm not some space adventure buff or a fan of some weird shit like that. The movie is far from being just an adventure or a fanatsy. The galactic order of things, the inter galactic battles, the wonderful scenaries and graphics, all of them just provide the background. Its the characters that truly capture your imagination. How Anakin Skywalker, a Jedi, turns to a Sith. The reasons behind each and every one of his actions are so logical and one can truly empathize with him. I think the character of Anakin aka Darth Vader is one of the most complex characters of all time in english cinema. You can almost feel his anger and his emotions( at least i could :P). Hats off to Geroge Lucas!.. It really requires a trilogy to develop a character as complex as that of Anakin, and he has done that to just about perfection.

Feeling Good . :)

Normally, the night after the exams are a huge let down, in the sense that you keep expecting that night for the entire week and finally when it comes, you realize that its just an other ordinary night. All the big plans somehow gets ruined and fucked up and you end up spending your time either sleeping or watching some stupid movie. But yesterday night was different. We actually did go out, have some truly great food and finally washed things down with a cracker of milk shake at mochas., and all of this thanks to the grand dad of our wing, DP! Not the best of nights, coz the junta lost enthu by the time we reached mochas, still one thts worth blogging about. :)..

Also I recieved a certificate today morning. One for donating blood. It was something that I did out of arbit enthu some 6 months back and now I am getting a certificate for it. Dunno why, but even that made me feel good. Like I had done finally something that was worhtwhile and useful . This makes me wonder whether all that fart Ayush was putting about social service making you feel good inside and all the crap is actually true!. Maybe it is, and I should remember not to have a prejudiced attitude towards such things from now on.

Anyways, second last day of my stay in IIT as third year and probably my last post as one. So clap-a-doodle-do coz ze fourth year beckons moi!!!... :D

the enthu bubble has finally burst

I am down and out for the count,i have never been so roded in any exams before in my life and the sad part is it really aint bothering me much, Now that is something i am worried about ... got fucked in A fucked in B fucked in C fucked in D....... have two exams left and i am still chilled out ..... chilled out just isnt the right word more like a zombie ;like these things dont matter anymore.....
the usual infinite fightputs on the night before endsems just dont seem to make sense nomore.......
yesterday night was a total comedy .... here i was in the midst of my usual nightout; calm as usual inspite of the heap of crap to be mugged up... knowing that the night was still young ;all was well but suddenly at two in the morning i just gave up ;dont know how to put it (stupid voices in my head) but the gist is... i was convinced that this just wasnt worth the effort, fuck the grade fuck the stupid course; like its gonna change anything
So i watched two episodes of house,3 episodes of southpark and played about an hour of fifa and woah it was six in the morning crashed got up at 8 ; gave it came back ...... was all sad and gloomy for about 2 hours after the paper but now i am back to square one........

CARNAL INDULGENCE!!

right now i have in my stomach:

1. 9 Idlis
2. 5 glasses of water
3. 1 Frooty full
4. 1 packet of Rasna
5. 1 Medu Vada
6. 1 Coffee
7.1/2 a bottle of 500 ml Limca
8. A CIGAR( this wont qualify as IN MY STOMACH :))

mind you.. this is my dinner... things i had in a span of scarcely an hour...

TOP THIS!!!!

heavy heart

Right now i can feel the weight of my heart. AS IF there is a anvil there dragging me down.
Hmm.. strange days, stranger feelings, desperate actions!

Pain??

I am totally pained with several issues.
I can't even sit down and point out what are the exact issues that are paining me.
I have lost the ability to think sensibly and am acting on my instincts, and most often, they turn out to be stupid.
I lose track of what I'm doing and start wondering if there is a point to what I am doing at all.
I do some things that are really stupid and avoidable, and then have to deal with the painful outcomes of it.
I get so frustrated with life that even things that should make me happy fail to do so these days.
I feel like I am going through the worst phase of my life.
I think I should go to a psychiatrist and get myself examined.
I don't see anything around me making any sense at all.
I am no longer able to explain my actions clearly to anyone.
I don't know what I should do next.
I should stop writing and get some rest.

Prelude

There are few times in your life( first time for me) when you write a blog post as a prelude to another one. SO without further elaborations, i hope you understand its grandeur.

I am gonna write a blog on IIT M elections 2007!.. :)

everyone agrees that the best thing in life is getting a job which you truly enjoy doing
but what do you do ,if you are pretty good at something but just dont have the passion for it anymore ,, and you dont know whether you are any good at any thing else . I would take my case for instance i assume i would be a pretty good electrical engg if i put my mind to it .......

.first of all let me narrate a speech given by one of my elec proffs.....
he asked us why we should do device modelling,, and since proffs and students arent supposed to converse franklly in elec ,,well he himself had to answer his own question.....
he replied fine it is needed for circuits ,and a lot of people earn thier lively hoods from it,, but then again there are loads of courses like that ,so why this one??? ......well for a change wouldnt you love to do a course just because it is "intellectually simulating or challenging "" and for no other reason :)

well after bloody three years of nonsense and n number of brilliant courses wasted finally some sense prevails you would reckon .... but a few days in to the course the number starts to kick in... the formulas that one has to mug start pilling away ....and the sad truth kicks in if you want to do well in that course you have to practise those stupid formulae,, do some substitutions and get a feel for the kinda numbers the equations churn out ;no one gives a fuck if we actually "knew something" and just werent carefulwith a bit of trivial math .... its ok if sometimes 1 + 2 = 4

thats what all these fucking courses turn out to be in the end dont they ..trivial math..
tell me something how else can a friend of yours who's attended all classes put 18 hours of classes into about 2 hours on the day before the quiz thats because the idea part or fundamentals are so basic the rest is basic math;
knowing your formulae or pattern fitting (that can be a challenge agreed but then you got mug the pattern up badly so that you can repeat it efficiently in the bloody quizzes)

well thats why most of us claim that iits are not what they thought it would be.The primary reason for that would be the first year that we undergo here ,,its so bloody fucked up its just unbelievable ..... you basically got to rot rot rot ..... the ideas just aint enuff to carry you through .. you learn that understanding something at some deep level doesnt matter much .... i guess most would agree that we all feel anxious when there is a theory part in a paper.... thats cause most of the courses the theory is some stupid thing that has to be mugged up or its because we actually dont know shit about the theory or the ideas behind it.
i tell you what all courses should be bloody open book . lets see if those chuts have anything to teach us other than to rote some problems or formulae
these exams are supposed to test how well we know the subject rite ... well how does it matter in the real world ....whatever i am gonna fucking do with what i have learnt is not gonna be asked of impromptu right ;with of all resources locked away .......i can look at my book and solve the problem.... no one is gonna accuse me of copying as long as i can get it right by looking at a book and there mostly isnt much of a time limit as well ..... so make it open book i say if you have anything to teach that is and give ample time .half of the courses that exist now wouldnt be courses anymore
quality education a bunch of lies i tell you
at he end of the days you even dont know the few ideas that were taught
you just mug the shit before the quiz and have no clue about it after the course

let me be honest i loved studying for iitjee cause i though it couldnt be mugged up and its was all about understanding a bunch of ideas and applying them ........... atleast 50% of it...... and i saw that the people around me just couldnt get those ideas no matter how much effort they put in loved the feeling i must say ....but then you come here and see its not very true you dont have to be einstien to be here you just have to be above average and be ready to slog thats was just a bit hard to take you see the one thing you thought you were good at isnt true anymore you just another average joe in this present system and by the end of four sems your spirit is killed.... you take a look at a cat question paper and just love the math section simple ,, no mugging involved or so it seems..... the challenge is on again ..or so it seems for a while atleast ......the whole vicious cycle begin again

Gen

Why am I blogging?

coz its the first of MARCH!. what better reason could there be?

The updates I can provide are as follows:( definitely written in the order of importance)

1. INSTI ELECTIONS have come. Its that time of the year when people who never noticed you until then, will act as though they are the best friends you ever had!. Friendship, regionalism, hostel spirit, wing spirit, branch spirit, lab spirit and some "n" other shady spirits which noone might have ever heard of are called into prominence. Promises are made, allegiances are sworn. People meet in the darkest corners of the insti, in the blackest hours of night. Smiles that would have put Mona Lisa to shame are on the lips of everyone. Faces that are like painted masks, no expression nor emotions. Its that time when plans are made, lies told, offers given. Lemme tell you one thing. There is nothign like politics... no.. not even tht..;)

hmm.. gues there is nothing else..!

never has the title of this blog totally frustrated made more sense to me
more on it when i get atleast an hour or two of divine slumber

Addicted!!

YES.. finally i bare my heart open for thee!!!

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I am an addict!!!

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I am an addict to Prison Break!

An addict to Heroes!!!!

An addict to LOST!!

An addict to HIMYM!!!!!!!

Oh.. dear sweet world... What would I be without these addictions? What meaning to Tuesday afternoons, Friday nights? These addictions , they define my world and how can I exist without the world!!!

your sentiments exactly the grass is always greener on the other side syndrome ....
buts in a way thats what gets us thru life in a sense the feeling that there is always something better waiting for us at the end of the tunnel
we are so depressed because we really dont know what we want from our lives our perception of fun keeps changing so rapidly that we really dont know what makes us happy no more

but i tell you what everyone craves for more than anything approval.... after sex that is.....
most of us do the things that we do in our lives either getting laid or to seeks someone aprroval to show that your good at something ........ and the people who say they dont give a shit about what other think about them just arent getting the approval they believe they deserve and are just generating self approval :P
the feeling that you get when you have defeated some one at something at anything is intoxicating lets face it ... getting the better of someone does give us great saddistic pleasure thatsthe only reason why sport even exists
everything is a bloody competition and thats what life is you are happy if you are a winner and sad if you are loser...........

Hmm.. thus finally the quiz one has gotten over!

Actually its not completely over for me, since the "T" slot quiz is left, which is gonna be on the coming friday. Anyways such trivial intricacies aside the series as such can safely be assumed to have ended and the time to put peace in life started.

One of the things that I have realized over time, is how you have so many "important and fun" activities to do when you are busy with something, but when you find that you actually have a lot of time at your hands, you have absolutely nothing to do. Its like, for the entire exam period you will be like looking forward to the last day, and suddenly when the last day arrives you realize that its nothing so great. You realize that the one thing which you so eagerly sought for was just an other ordinary, mundane, banal thing of no particualr importance nor significance.

I dunno whats the reason for this "down feeling" I am experiencing these days. As though there is something lacking, some fire, some spirit, that burning emotion driving you from the inside, all that simply seems to be lacking. Its as though I have grown weary of this world. Maybe a significant cause of this effect is the poems and other pieces of literature that I had to study as a part of my English course. In almost all those literary works, the poets and authors seem to lament the inexplicably pathetic and helpless state of human mind and they seek refuge in the palaces of high thoughts and philosophy. Are they being wise or is it just plain cowardice?.. An outright refusal to face reality and truth!.

Maybe even I am wishing the same. An escape into imaginary lands where no laws apply. Where the mind and body are together and free alike, unrestrained neither by the physical flaws of human body nor by the cultural, moral and social blocks set around our thinking and reasoning.
I really dont know, what it is that I really wish for. Guess thats the case with most of us. We really dont know what we want. Even if we claim to be sure of knowing what it is that we want to achieve, we can never be sure of whether that thing, once achieved, will actually give the happiness that we expect out of it. This state of uncertainity is omniprescent in each and every second of our lifes, that most of the time we don even realize that its there. Its like the faded smell to which we already adjusted and accepted as a part and pacel of our existence.

Any talks or thoughts on life is really incomplete if we take into consideration only one person and his life. Man , being a social being, his often affected as much by his peers as he is by himself. Or in other words the decisions and behaviour of people around him influences his life, as much or even more, than his own decisions and attitude does. This ironical state of dependance is like the 2 -edged sword, which takes both yours and your opponents life.

This topic and my writing is really not going anywhere. Guess I have become one of those freaks, who type whatever they think. Its really funny, this act of typing whatever the heck you are thinking and see them being converted into black and white each and every second. Guess I am gonna stop now. Nothing much more to say. I started writing this thinking I had lot of thoughts to share, some groudbreaking, others earth shattering. But in the end i guess nothing except some gibberish actually materialized. This makes me wonder whether the real truth is actually gibberish. Because whenever we let out minds wander free, the resulting thoughts are rarely coherent. Maybe thats coz, order and coherence are human (willful) creations., not natural! This again makes me debate on whats natural and whats not. Human thoughts and actions are natural .. arent they?.. But then whats unnatural?. Even a predetermined action surely cannot be unnatural in the true literary sense of the word. Guess these days we are taking too much liberties into englih lanuage and guesss right now I am taking too much liberties with the readers( if anys) patience. What a crack that was!... the perfect pun!!... if i might say so..

yeah.. i knw... sad...AINT't!!!

Some interesting memories

You know what?

It struck me some 10 minutes back..

Why the fuck do we take photos????? The reason why we take photos are to freeze time, to retain the good old times we have had. But more often than not, we forget about these wonderful photos and memories that we gathered along the path of life. So here I am, in an attempt to revive those wonderful memories, posting some of the most controversial of them all. I dunno who are gonna see this and what effects they are going to have... but this is sure to open a bloody big can of worms,..




now that the build up is perfect.. here you go.... :)


THE TOTALLY BOOZED AND FAGGED UP MALLU GANG: presenting from the left; Pandy, Kudiyan( IP 1), Ganga ,Kullan, Kundan and yours truly!!!










hehe... and now that the shock has sunk in and just when "CntrlCCntrlV" though he was saved..here is the another one for the MASSES


BOOZED AND FAGGED UP AGAIN: pandy vainly trying to cover his face while the standing bhendi tries to make sense of things..:)


P.S.. I knw this will catch your attention....SUCKERS!!!!

A deserted beach with wind on my face and THE girl by my side!.. thats my idea of heaven

Replace THE girl with 3 more equally despo guys and it was tonight!!..
Add a fag too btw....:)

well well..... what can i say it seems i have been summoned :)
so what do i write about
1:the routine rape that we are subjected to every other day that we are actually shocked if it didnt happen
2:My boring life :life sucks period..... thats all there is to it
3:New ways of Rging that i was subjected to in past month or so
4:THe department intern process hmmmn now this does warrant a blog maybe even a mail to those chundaes handling or should i say fucking up the entire process
5:my habit of procrastination :) a result of which is me postponing the job of finishing this blog


ps i havent slept in the last 40 hours :(

Why the fuck?

Why the fuck are my co bloggers CntrlCCntrlV and gku not posting??????

behanchods......

A Sequel to Raped

This takes off where Mr. Wolverine left off in his previous post.. Here are my grim experiences with the same bloody exam.
If spending a beautiful weekend, which held innumerable promises, on reading up totally screwed up chapters of a book that someone wrote whenever he was frustrated with his wife, and reading powerpoint slides which was made by someone with the creativity of a 3rd grade kid, was not enough, there was a free monday afternoon also that was spent on this futile exercise. The entire procedure was so interesting that reading the stuff continuously for half an hour without dozing off would be considered a heroic achievement.
As usual, the learning process for me gained momentum only on monday afternoon. The learning and the periodic dozing off progressed at satisfactory rates until dinner time. After dinner at 9 PM, I got back to the studies, and in another half an hour, wolverine found my room dark, and yours truly fast asleep on the bed.
However, all was well planned. The alarm sounded as planned at 4 AM, and I was back on track. Occasional splashes of cold water helped in prolonging the period of assimilation of knowledge (?) between periodic dozing off. Everything was well taken care of, a day well begun, and I am safely seated in the exam hall 5 minutes before the scheduled exam time (hurray).
And then, the shock wave hits. The infamous question paper, described in enough detail by wolverine, is thrust into my hands. In five minutes, I realized that I am no better off than any random guy who stumbled into the exam hall and was asked to answer the paper. Interpolation of interpolated values, guesswork, absurd simplifications, and so on. Needless to say, it left me devastated, and a major chunk of my class was in no different state.
I think the best way to wind up would be with the words that Mr. Caninus wrote for the third question:

Answering this question requires one to learn up a formula that is so huge, that it is unethical for you to expect us to learn it.

More will follow as soon as the much awaited answer scripts are graded and returned.

Raped

haHA. THE NAME SAYS IT ALL!!!

Got roded aka fucked aka raped today in B slot quiz!>..:)

A bullshit fucking paper which even the madarchodh who set it wouldn have solved in his lifetime!!..

A brief description of the paper:

Question 1:

This required some 30 odd values which was to be referred, interpolated, extrapolated and whatever else one knows to do with them from an arbit logarithemic level table!
After doing all that we should again work on those stupid values and do some "god knows what" to find the answer( apparantely there is one!!!)
Min time required by anthropological standards: insanely large to put in hours...!!, weightage: 9 marks

Question 2:

Didn't read!!!
Min time reqd as per statistical agreement among persons who did attempt and of course read the qn: 1 hr, weightage: 9 marks

Question 3:

Required one to cram up and remember some very arbit eqn which obviously no sane person would!
Min time reqd: no idea, weightage: 5 marks

Question 4:

The only qn which i KNEW... didn get time to write... :(
Min time reqd.. couple of minutes, weightage: 2 marks

Qn 5 and Qn 6

Both 2 mark qns , but had no clue watsover... guess u wud take 5 minutes for them!


So tht wraps it up... and of course the given time for exam, was 50 minutes!!!

night out

hmm.. the topics shld have been more like "end sem fever ' and or " tragedies of IIT life" ... well, I don think I am going to put any night outs, simply don have the ethnu for it.. :{

2 days to go and absolutely nothing in my head... deja vu's have never been this strong!!

night out

well what can i say its that time of the year once again....a fortnight of night outs await us..
These precious hours of the night in which we cram up zillions of formulaes,countless theorems ,glance at tutscurse proffs.... all in all these are the hours which transform us into so called engineers,geeks ,fundae gods ,chuths ...... that we are
to be continued at a later time co blogmates chip in this surely is a topic very dear to you as well i guess

Not to be left behind

Mr Wolverine, who is my co-author of this blog, has been quite excited by the life around him, that he has managed a considerable number of posts before I even managed to gather enough enthusiasm (and time) to make my presence felt here. So I shall start off by describing my very boring schedule of the day, to do some justice to the title of the blog.

5AM: Wake up to the alarm I had set last night on my phone. By the time I manage to snooze it, I realize that i forgot to turn off the music I had been playing on my computer last night, and needless to say, all the famous personalities of all the woods of the country did an excellent job in preventing me from getting back to sleep. Wide awake now, I start wondering why on earth I had set an alarm for such an early time. Slowly, the picture becomes clearer. I had a Lab report (of which enough and more has been said) to submit today, on which I am yet to start working. The alarm was the product of my procrastination last night. Reluctantly, I get off my bed and thus started another uneventful day of my life.

7 AM: Done with the crazy thing. Congratulate myself for having finished it on time, with enough time left to prepare for attending the first lecture of the day. Realize to my dismay that I forgot to collect back my bicycle from the repairman, who had asked me to collect it y'day evening. I dont have enough time left to walk all the way, but I decide to give it a shot anyway.

8 AM: Walking out of the mess building, I find that there's a bus on the bus stop. Makes an attempt to run to reach it, but it leaves as soon as i reach the road, leaving me exhausted, having had a sprint right after my breakfast. Cursing the universe, I decide to walk all the way. (Not that I had a choice.)

8.10 AM: Almost reached the classroom. I find my classmates on their way back from the classroom. Class canceled for no apparent reason. Cursing myself, I start walking back. Midway, I decide not to go all the way back, but while away the free time in the adjacent building. Spent the next hour exploring unseen corners of this building, which happens to be highly branched and awfully huge.

9 AM: Bored of walking around. Settles down in the classroom where I have the next class at 10. A cute girl who was in the classroom leaps out of the room as soon as I enter (Why???), leaving me along in the room. I decide to spend the time in the best way possible. Yes, I doze off.

10 AM: Woken up by all the noise made by people walking into the class. This is followed by a totally normal hour of class, followed by another hour of totally abnormal class. In the latter, half an hour was wasted by the professor and his bunch of assistants who were trying to figure out how to power on the lights and microphone in the room. The prof proceeds with his boring lecture, overshooting his time by 15 minutes.

12.15 PM: Another boring lunch in the boring mess hall. Starts walking back to the classroom.

1 PM: Prof walks in and starts writing "No Class". Overjoyed, I proceed to figuring out how to spend the hour fruitfully. All hopes shattered when he appends the statement with a "on xx/02/2007". Dejected, I give myself up to suffer another lecture by the prof.

2 PM: The grand finale, the LAB !! The overenthusiastic instructor proceeds to explain to us how a boring machine placed in a boring lab can convert a rectangular piece of metal to a random, boring shape. The torture goes on for two hours, leaving me totally exhausted. Friends invite me to join them at CCD over a coffee.

4 PM: Discussions on random topics with the friends in CCD, sipping a cold coffee. Perhaps the least boring hour of the day. Walked back to my hostel with them.


6 PM: Decides to write a post on the blog, triggered by the guilt of not having made a post in spite of several attempts by Wolverine to make me an active blogger. Guess the day doesn't hold any more interesting or boring stuff for me. Now, where is the Publish button?

MVOSS-Part 2

Maninomander stood gazing out of the grilled window. The cold was getting to his bones these days and he longed for the arrival of summer. "Soon" , he muttered beneath his breath, suddenly not sure of what he was wishing for. Years in the army had hardened him ; no longer a stranger to either death or pain, he knew that every breath was a gift hard earned and one that should be cherished. " But I am different" he used to remind himself proudly. He still smiled upon the carefree blithe life of the young and seemed to understood the happiness in the little mischiefs of life. He always believed life to be something that should be enjoyed, not bound and strained under the chains of authority and soceity.

Still today was different. He could no longer feel the warmthness inside his heart, as though the cold outside had chilled everything including the soul. " Hmm.. How can it be so cold?. Its only November and the spring is just receeding?! "he mused loudly. The mountain looked gloomy and dark under the setting sun, it was as though the receeding rays were robbing the tall peak of its beauty and serenity. The general blinked his eyes, almost as though he was hoping against hope to wake up and feel the warm rays of the sun against his face.

The cool breeze kept wafting in. He could sense that smell, though he couldn't place it. The cold, he thought , its all the fault of the cold!. Suddenly, the mighty general felt weak and lost, as though everything he had ever held close to his heart and mind had become false and unreal. Leaning against the grill, he bent his head into the folded arms and as if from nowhere a small drop fell to the ground. " Sir, the priest has come", the sharp voice from behind the door declared.

MVOSS- Part 1

The evening by itself was rather foggy and dark. A silent chill ran through the air which made one utter that small breathless "ssshh" which ended in a vibrant gasp. The view from the mountain side was breathtaking, for it combined the transcendental beauty of the mist covered mountains with the waning strength of the setting sun's rays. All this was nothing new for Philogyne, for he had seen things far more spectacular, things that defy and revamp imagination, during his short but exciting stay of twenty odd years. Yet he let himself be amazed, he let the feeling of blissful shock overcome him, immersing in its beauty, like one seeing it all for the first time.

The wafting drafts of air carried that smell, a smell so familiar that it passed out of one's conscious self. But this time, as the breeze tickled his nose, he again felt the smell as though he was sensing it for the very first time. Random thoughts, unconnected and undisturbed by the settling hand of wisdom passed through his brain. He knew what was happening and he didnt want it to stop..

Time as a flowing river went on, shading the scenary with its invisible brush. HE felt the calming warmth on his face being erased and the wafting smell fading in his heart. As an orgasm the feeling raced through him, shattering all walls of escape and imagination. As the shivering slowed down, he knew the time had finally come.

The Moon

Yes, I agree this has been a rather arbit topic to blog about. But the inspiration for this blog is the result of the long, lonely walks that yours truly has been taking at nights these days. During these walks , the object of my undivided attention has been nothing but that beautiful, surreal circle of light which seems to mirror all our desires and at the same time our worst fears. Has anything else ever been so dark and mysterious, at the same time soo beautiful and enchanting!? The light that emanates from it is so unlike that from any other source; it seems to pierce right through one's eyes, on a journey that takes it right inside the very depth of one's soul. Beauty is a subjective term, but I guess this will be as close as it can ever get to a true definition or symbol.

So why has something so beautiful, always been associated with evil spirits and dark power? In almost all popular ancient schools of thought, full moon is the time at which the evil creatures of the night are the strongest. Even the werewolf of popular lore, transforms from its human form to that blood thristy monster on full moon nights (or is it on exposure to normal moon light?). Thus examples are endless for such negative symbolisms that are adjuncted to the moon. So lets give some introspections as to why such false connotations have arisen, in the meantime I will be back with my next post.

My quote for the day is:

" A thing of beauty, is a joy forever"

Fucked up Labs

There are some things in one's college life which form part of those "unforgettable" memories. Memories which you write down in diaries, memories which you blog about so lavishly, memories which you try to keep alive in the form of photos, videos and what not!BUT mind you, most part of college life or for that matter life itself, or at least a very large part of it, belongs to the group called " i am so happy the F*cK*ng thing is over" memory. Seriously, it is this group which we dont talk about and forget as soon as its over, and at times even before they are over!!Now that we have seen and heard enough about the unforgettable memories, its time for its forgotten brother to get some piece of the pubilcity cake...

One of the most unpopular and hated things in college life are the *you guessed it right* LABS!!.. From here on we wil refer to it as "You know what".The very word is a taboo in most circles, the word conjuring up images of intense torture in dimly lit rooms, where aliens * cmon, they cant be human!!* in the form of TA's bark order upon order on you to find the resulting stress concentraion and torque on some goddman drill bit. Now normally all this pain is circumvented by yours truly by some efficient use of his teammates talents and some use of his own vast potential to do "cntrlCcntrlV". Unfortunately all the usual plans and techniques fell apart in the last weeks "You know what"".

Details on that particular event, though terribly interesting, I will skip for the time being. Because, though the fuel for this particular blog was provided by it, the final spark that set things into motion, was provided by an esteemed friend who dared to ask that unanswerable question:

" WHY?"'!!!!!

WHY the bloody **** are we doing this?
WHY should we allow these predator aliens *TAs* to command us even when we know they are full of nothing but Sh*t??

and so on and so forth the WHY s go...

Basically I hope you guys get an idea of my emotions, coz I am pretty much tired of typing. So for the time being, let the WHY s remain unanswered and let the aliens continue their massacre.

About the blog

Let me take the honours by starting this new blog. This is a blog of, by and for all the totally frustrated people out there. Here we are, taking out the venom of life via the magic of keyboard.
We are here to write whatever we want, however we want, not giving a damn about whether it makes sense or not. And so, my dear friends, we begin!