Hmm.. thus finally the quiz one has gotten over!

Actually its not completely over for me, since the "T" slot quiz is left, which is gonna be on the coming friday. Anyways such trivial intricacies aside the series as such can safely be assumed to have ended and the time to put peace in life started.

One of the things that I have realized over time, is how you have so many "important and fun" activities to do when you are busy with something, but when you find that you actually have a lot of time at your hands, you have absolutely nothing to do. Its like, for the entire exam period you will be like looking forward to the last day, and suddenly when the last day arrives you realize that its nothing so great. You realize that the one thing which you so eagerly sought for was just an other ordinary, mundane, banal thing of no particualr importance nor significance.

I dunno whats the reason for this "down feeling" I am experiencing these days. As though there is something lacking, some fire, some spirit, that burning emotion driving you from the inside, all that simply seems to be lacking. Its as though I have grown weary of this world. Maybe a significant cause of this effect is the poems and other pieces of literature that I had to study as a part of my English course. In almost all those literary works, the poets and authors seem to lament the inexplicably pathetic and helpless state of human mind and they seek refuge in the palaces of high thoughts and philosophy. Are they being wise or is it just plain cowardice?.. An outright refusal to face reality and truth!.

Maybe even I am wishing the same. An escape into imaginary lands where no laws apply. Where the mind and body are together and free alike, unrestrained neither by the physical flaws of human body nor by the cultural, moral and social blocks set around our thinking and reasoning.
I really dont know, what it is that I really wish for. Guess thats the case with most of us. We really dont know what we want. Even if we claim to be sure of knowing what it is that we want to achieve, we can never be sure of whether that thing, once achieved, will actually give the happiness that we expect out of it. This state of uncertainity is omniprescent in each and every second of our lifes, that most of the time we don even realize that its there. Its like the faded smell to which we already adjusted and accepted as a part and pacel of our existence.

Any talks or thoughts on life is really incomplete if we take into consideration only one person and his life. Man , being a social being, his often affected as much by his peers as he is by himself. Or in other words the decisions and behaviour of people around him influences his life, as much or even more, than his own decisions and attitude does. This ironical state of dependance is like the 2 -edged sword, which takes both yours and your opponents life.

This topic and my writing is really not going anywhere. Guess I have become one of those freaks, who type whatever they think. Its really funny, this act of typing whatever the heck you are thinking and see them being converted into black and white each and every second. Guess I am gonna stop now. Nothing much more to say. I started writing this thinking I had lot of thoughts to share, some groudbreaking, others earth shattering. But in the end i guess nothing except some gibberish actually materialized. This makes me wonder whether the real truth is actually gibberish. Because whenever we let out minds wander free, the resulting thoughts are rarely coherent. Maybe thats coz, order and coherence are human (willful) creations., not natural! This again makes me debate on whats natural and whats not. Human thoughts and actions are natural .. arent they?.. But then whats unnatural?. Even a predetermined action surely cannot be unnatural in the true literary sense of the word. Guess these days we are taking too much liberties into englih lanuage and guesss right now I am taking too much liberties with the readers( if anys) patience. What a crack that was!... the perfect pun!!... if i might say so..

yeah.. i knw... sad...AINT't!!!