I feel disillusioned with life and everything that goes on in it. You might exclaim "Not again"!.. Well, I don't have a retort for that.
Shaastra is getting over today, and I feel nothing. Its not that I want to feel anything, but still it feels odd when you don't feel anything. I can see myself through the tunnels of time, a coalescing of the past and the present. Combining the years, I can see myself in most people, in the vol who runs around carrying computers and in the cord who orders him about. Its not that I have done anything great in or for Shaastra, but then its not that I have not done either. Inconsequential, you might say, another brick in the wall..
It makes me wonder how the different "me's" might have looked upon each other. Its a rather enlightening experience bringing all the different me's to the reality of "NOW" and then viewing them all side by side, a juxtaposistion of my own life!
Feel there is something lacking, a drive maybe. Recognition and relevance, the light is still not out, only the path is dark.
2 comments:
fuck man i tell you what all these yearly events send you down memory lane all the time .
I dont know man the which "me" i like more, the know it all fourth year whos been through everything or the stupid freshie whos yet to come to terms with stuff around him
ya da.. memories.. they are all that left of our past.. i don know man.. maybe its good the way it is.. i become too senti when i think about past.. all the good times and all.
there is this saying tht i have heard..
" all good things must come to an end, so that new better things can begin" .. i guess we should just believe in that and keep going'...
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